gunner: a pre-med or medical student who is ambitious to a fault. They often throw…
So… part of a research endeavor that I and two other undergrads are working on within the neuroscience department is now on “standby” due to the government shutdown.
That moment when I think I like working with my hands and that surgery will be an awesome specialty choice, and then I try and cut into my first sheep brain only to remove a whole ****ing chunk of cortex along with the pia mater.
Every time you find yourself doing that ask “what’s the point of this?” or “what do I gain by doing this?”
I can’t compare how I look to people who aren’t me. What would the point be? I will never look like that girl because I’m never going to get any taller. I’m never going to look like that girl because I will never ever be a D-cup. It just won’t happen. By thinking about it, I would just be wasting a ton of energy on something I can’t change.
Likewise, I will never run as fast as Usain Bolt. I will never play for the NBA. I will never be able to bench press three hundred pounds. It just would never happen.
Why waste energy on it??
Instead, spend that time and effort turning yourself into the best version of you that exists. I don’t worry about how my friends did on exams because I will never live their lives. Instead I look at how I did, how I prepared, and I try to do better than myself next time.
The only person you can ever really beat in the race is yourself. If you keep chasing other people, you’ll just end up exhausted and unhappy.
You have to ask yourself if you’d rather be a better version of yourself or a cheap copy of someone else. I know which one of those things I try to be every day.
For personal reference purposes.
So for some reason, I have decided to kill myself during my second-to-last semester. I feel like I’m the only one taking 18 credit hours, all of them being upper level neuroscience courses along with biochemistry and three labs. On top of classes, this is the composition of my average week:
My free time is spent working out, sleeping, and in worship. I don’t think I have enough hours in a week.
(I know I’m going to look back on this someday as a med student and laugh at myself for QQing… ._.)
Here Is a modified version of my “How to avoid being a gunner” post.
How to avoid becoming a gunner in medical school
As a pre-med student, this is the part that sickens me most about the pre-med student body in general. I feel that the “gunner” mindset is almost like a contagious disease in the sense that one gunner leads to another becoming a gunner and so on. It is seen especially at my school since gunners are often recognized and paid more attention to by professors and deans than those who pursue and accomplish their goals with modest nature. I believe there is a true difference between fair,healthy competition and just straight up douchebaggedness. It is a relief to know that there are people out there who see this as well.
Just submitted an abstract for the Unite for Sight Global Health Conference in 2014.
Nathanial S Nolan
Imagine you, like most traditional medical students, went to college for four years to earn an undergraduate degree. If you are like many students you may also have obtained a graduate degree or worked for a period of time. You then spend time…
Today was my last first day of college. It is still hard to believe that all these years went by so fast. ☺
It was delish and quite a special day